Sad Day

Brutus finally started to lift his leg:(  This makes me sad.  Today was his first day at the dog park and he did a pretty good job...but then he learned how to lift his leg. Break my heart. My dog is all grown up!

Gloom and Doom

I have come to realize that I am a 'gloom and doom' kind of person. I came to this realization the other day. I was talking to my brother Christian. I asked him if his girlfriend was going to come to his Eagle Court of Honor. Christian didn't know and his response was, that she was having a rough day. I asked him why and he said, "I don't know. Girls have 9-11 happen to them every day." This is me too! Its like every day is 9-11 (but not really because it is my birthday). I started this blog initially because I wanted to tell my dating stories. Well, I still have plenty of them, but it seems like they are all gloom and doom. Or, I just have have time to deal with it. I'm exhausted...end of story.

When you go to high school, people ask where you see your self in five or ten years. Well, I didn't think in high school I would be still going to college, have a dog, living in my parents basement, not married, no kids, and be in debt. These are all things that I didn't even think about. Sometimes I think life is just mean and cruel...but then I think about other people that really do have crappy lives and I know I shouldn't complain. I think I just need a 'me' day where I can rest and relax and not think about anything.

I have also come to realize I hate dating. I don't want to do it anymore. Andy (tattoo) is gerk. He makes me so mad and he makes me cry....but I still go back for me. Its kind of confusing. He found out I was still dating other people and he got pissed. Ugh, the whole thing is stupid, but I kinda like him.

Mustache (Chris) I think finally decided to give up on me because I never had time for him. I think it would be different if I didn't have a dog. My dog need attention, so I have to go home after either working an eight hour day or leaving the house at six am to go to school. Plus, Chris lives in Tooele...that is like an hour away! He was nice though. He is one of those guys I would classify as "I wish I liked him" kind of guys.

Tristain (monster truck) is not mad at me any more. I paid up on my debt to him by going to Texas Road House. This pissed Andy off because he made him jealous. Whatever. It wasn't a date, I was just paying  up on a debt.

Carlos is finally leaving me alone too. He also realizes how busy I am. But, if I really wanted to, I would make time for him. I make time for Andy all the time. Ugh. Dating sucks.

There have been other guys here and there along the way. Nothing really comes of it. Tim finally is leaving me alone. I told him for like the 10th time I am not interested and he finally is getting the hint. Bless his heart. He started drinking though. Lame.

Shelby didn't go to Minnesota after all. I am sad that things didn't work our for her and Bryan. I told her I would go to Disneyland...but I don't think I can afford it. I change my mind ALL the time!!!

Well....I think its time to get back to my homework. I have to decide if I want to go back to English or Business Management next semester:( Ugh. I need to get married so someone else can make my decisions  I don't seem to be making good ones...so I need someone to make them for me!

St. George

If I can, I like to take trips. One weekend, I took my sister and her two kids to St. George to play with my friend Megan. It was a lot of fun. 

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 The pool was a lot of fun. Greyson and Memphis can't swim...but that didn't stop them from jumping into the pool. It sure was fun.

 We went to dinner at the "Black Bear Diner". It was some good food. Memphis was being very 'proper' with her dinner. It was cute.

 We had to stop on the way to St. George at the gas station with the big chair. Here is Michelle and Memphis and Greyson.

We also went to a dinosaur museum. It was boring...but we went anyway.

Shelby's Cabin 2012

My friend Shelby has a pretty awesome cabin in the mountains.  Its a lot of fun up there. It's nice and secluded. Even though it is a cabin, it has all the things a house does, minus internet. One of our favorite things is riding 4-wheelers. This time was extra fun because this time Shelby and I had to share a 4-wheeler, it had just rained, and we went with a group of people.

 This is us before we left. Why are we so cool? Oh, its because we are wearing the same sweater, but mine is from Tennessee and Shelby's is from Minnesota. We are cool like that.

Usually we have our own 4-wheeler, but this time we needed to share. Well, a bug flew into Shelby's mouth so she turned around to spit it out. Don't worry...she spit on me. We laughed SO hard!

The people we went 4-wheeling with would stop like every five minutes...so we got bored.

Riding on the back of the 4-wheeler is relaxing, but lame.

One of the things we stopped to look at was a bear trap. I just didn't understand. It was just some sticks piled up. After making a comment about this 'bear trap', I was then made fun of the rest of the ride. Anyway, the explained to me how the trap worked. It still didn't make sense, but it caught a bear...so it apparently does work. 

There are a lot of loggers up there in the mountains. The draw pictures of naked people. 

I got a little muddy after:/

That is pretty much the extent of the trip. It was a lot of fun and I think the cabin is a perfect destination to get away.

Boys.....suck!

Ok, not all boys suck, but I seem to have some crazy experiences lately. So, here are some stories.

1. Alex, the boy from Minnesota, called me...twice in one night. It was kind of weird. Now, if you know me or anything, he was the first boy to break my heart.  I've had a rough time getting over him. Anyway, I am one of those people that deletes numbers...well, I deleted his number but then I decided that I wanted to talk to him...so I went through my phone bill and found his number. I sent him a simple text and he never responded. I just left his number in my phone. This was months ago. Well, the other night he called me.  Anyway, all I heard was loud music playing, so it didn't make sense. My thought was, 'maybe I will just listen for a while so the next day he will wonder if we talked'. (I had also assumed he had been drinking) Well, I hung up. I didn't really know what to do. Then, he called me again at 1:30 AM!  This time there was just clanking noise and after a minute or so, he hung up. I still don't know what happened. Oh well. I didn't call or text him back. It was just really random and weird. Who knows what will ever happen with him.

2. Andy (tattoo guy) forgot my birthday. What an ass. In fact, he is an ass. I learned in a class once that 'you' statements are bad...but I'm going to ignore that for now. So, if I were talking to him, I would say, "you need to make time for me. Once a week is not enough for me". "You need to ask me to do things, not just hint at them". "You need to text me more than LOL, its stupid". "You just need to 'shit or get off the pot'". I really like Andy, but I don't like taking second seat to softball. Maybe I will just end it. He is an ass...but I just like him. Ugh.

3. There are two guys I have been talking too that seem nice. One seems like he is looking for a relationship and everything. I guess time will tell on that one. Then, there is this other one. He is really fun to talk to, but he also is just looking for the hook-up. I guess its a good thing he lives far away.

4. AND....this guy kills me. The first thing he says to me is, "I want you". Anyway, we have talked back and forth for a little bit...and I think he is bi-polar. He asked me late at night if he could call me. I didn't respond because I was falling asleep. The next day I apologized for not answering and he told me he didn't want anything to do with me because I was playing 'games' with him. Hold on, What? Oh, don't worry...its been back and forth. So, last night he called me and we discussed meeting. I told him I would think about it...I guess he took that as playing a 'game' too. In fact, I'm going to type his texts in a different blog. I did start messing with him because I was SO annoyed with him. Ugh. He is NUTS! No wonder he is 35 and single. What a loser.

I just want to state that I am not a skank or anything. Just because I talk about all these guys doesn't mean I will ever meet them. I do want to get married and settle down...but that can only happen if I meet people...and that is what I am working on! Don't judge.

Happy Birthday To Me

This week I turned the dreaded 27!! I don't really think my dread has anything to do with being 27, but more for the fact that I haven't done anything with my life. I guess I have, but I don't feel like I am where I should be at my age. Hmmm...only that makes sense for me.  Anyway, my birthday was a birthday. I went to school, went to work, and then went home. I know, I'm super cool.  I did get some cool gifts though. I got a $30 gift card to the girl that does my hair. Chad and Jeni gave me an awesome picture from monster trucks, I got a cute bag and some shoes as well. It wasn't a bad birthday...but then again, I don't have too many expectations for birthdays because I don't like to celebrate them:/

Not a Nice Surprise

Brutus is not yet trained to not use the house as his bathroom. Its pretty annoying. He has learned also to hide under my bed when its bedtime so I can't put him in his crate. I'm usually too tired to fight him, so I decided just to let him sleep under my bed. To my surprise, he woke me up to let him go outside! I was so excited. This happened several nights in a row. So, the good news is that he is potty trained...but only in my room. If he is in the basement or any other part of the house...he just goes to the bathroom and its SUPER annoying. Anyway, when Brutus wakes me up in the middle of the night, we use the basement entrance. One night I opened the door and there was a HUGE SPIDER ON THE WALL. Now, I am not normally scared of spiders...but this one freaked me out! As I ran past it, I just hoped it didn't jump off the wall and eat me. I hurried and grabbed a shovel and killed it! 

I know this picture doesn't make the spider look that big, but its probably one of the biggest spiders I have ever seen. AND, it probably has brothers and sisters too...which is not a happy thought. So, now when I open the basement door...I am very cautious of the walls.